Monday, December 30, 2013

Soccer

I promised last post to share some of the experiences that filled autumn semester, but Christmas Break distracted me. For today, I would like to recount the rather astounding soccer season we enjoyed on the hilltop.


First, let me offer some context for our soccer program. Some of this may be repeated information, but to understand the fullness of our team's story, it ought to be shared again. We play in the Cascade Collegiate Soccer League at a club level against squads from area schools--Central Oregon Community College, Lewis & Clark College, Oregon State University, Portland State University, Reed College, and Willamette University. Last season we won two out of ten games, and our record was celebrated by the seminary as the finest anyone could remember. Our leading goal scorer and captain graduated, and only six players returned to the team this year.

I served as the player-coach after playing for the team last autumn, and I tempered my expectations internally though I was hopeful the season could be a success for reasons other than winning. (Fraternity and the cultivation of virtue are excellent reasons to play even for a losing outfit.) When I arrived back at seminary in late August, I met a number of new students interested in playing for the team, and to my surprise, many of them were very able soccer players. We had 22 players sign up, and 20 played in games at some point. That is an achievement in participation.

After beginning training in September, we started our league schedule with a 4-4 tie against Willamette on our muddy, mismeasured home field. They were furious with themselves for letting the minnows from Mount Angel play them even, but we weren't finished surprising opponents. We went undefeated in our first four games. We won six out of ten games. We tied two. We lost only twice. We were the only team to take points from the top two teams in the league. We had the leading scorer in the league. We achieved more than anyone, including us, had expected at season's beginning. To understand why this is incredible, one must grasp the competitive disadvantages we faced.

Our school draws from about 150 students, many of whom cannot make the time commitment to play a sport. Reed College has 1,400 students. Willamette has 2,000 undergraduate students. Lewis & Clark has 3,700. Central Oregon is a tick above 7,000. Oregon State? Almost 28,000. Portland State? 29,500.

Our athletic budget at Mount Angel is $4,500 for all three of our team sports (basketball, soccer, and volleyball) plus any incidental costs to repair athletic or recreational facilities. Our home games are played on a pitch that doubles as the home of a gopher family and boasts some of the ruddiest terrain between the lines of any regulation playing field. The goal posts are set in cement but were not placed parallel to each other, so one sideline is 18 feet longer than the other. The place becomes a mud pit when the autumn rains fall. Even the gate to get into the field doesn't get unlocked on game days. We have to go around the fence and through a puddle-filled passageway opened up by thousands of footsteps sneaking around the fence's edge. When we don't play on the field, we put up small goals in our gym, where the seal on the hardwood floors is coming up like candy wrappers, and the walls, doors, stage curtain, and rafters present unique challenges to the flow of the game.

We didn't have enough white uniforms to outfit all our players, so we wore blue each game. Our limited window of practice time was for one hour, 4-5 p.m., on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays, assuming we didn't have another event for the seminary that conflicted. Only about half of the team could come to each training session, and even that number dwindled at the end of the season.

Quite simply, we competed in a way that our competitive disadvantages should not have allowed us to compete. The schools in our league fielded teams that drew from vastly larger student pools, probably practiced 4-5 days a week for two hours a practice with superior facilities, less time-consuming responsibilities for school, and more money to finance their endeavors. Yet we competed and even won.



As coach, I am proud of the team results, but as a brother seminarian of my teammates, I think we ought to take more pride in the practices we attended, the sacrifices we made, the friendships we built, the patience we exercised, the fortitude we developed, the humility we learned, the integration of faith we implemented, and the witness we offered.

During finals week, I sat at my desk reviewing notes for an exam I would take in the morning when I heard a commotion in the hallway. This isn't unusual. After a minute or so of hearing a large and growing group of voices outside my door, someone knocked. My teammates had all broken their studies to say thank you to me for coaching. They presented to me a soccer ball each one of them had autographed. Even our two diehard fans joined in the group. Not knowing what else to say, they started a rendition of happy birthday. I was humbled and grateful for their gesture.

At its core, soccer is a simple endeavor--22 players trying to put a round ball in the opponent's goal. Setting aside the offside rule and the intricacy of tactics, soccer is a competition with the potential to teach life lessons and cultivate virtue. If we did that this season, even had we gone winless, God would have granted success to the work of our hands. That we experienced a few victories made the culmination even finer. It was a great season.


Thursday, December 12, 2013

Finished

Finals week reached its conclusion for me yesterday. I had one exam after completing two others last Wednesday, and the two study days we had prior allowed me to finish the three synthesis papers I needed to compose. While many of my brother seminarians have further testing today and tomorrow, I get to relax a bit before driving away for the break. Since the semester is complete, I thought I might share a few moments that stand out. I will try to do this over the next few blogs. For today, I'd like to share one experience from my pastoral ministry. This is from a theological reflection I wrote in late September.



I never thought a sniffle could terrify me, but on Wednesday night, as I heard a second grader’s faint whimper, I knew tears were coming. A shred of dread filled my insides. How should I respond? It was the first day of Religious Education at St. Joseph Church in Salem. Twenty-one wonder-filled, hushed students packed the seats. We had not even shared names as this quivering boy verged on a breakdown. What should have been my pastoral response?

Without a name or any background on the boy, I kneeled before his desk, placing my face at his level and spoke as soothingly as I could. “Are you OK?” I half-whispered. “Would you like to come over to the side and sit with me? Maybe we could talk about how you’re feeling. All this new stuff can be overwhelming, can’t it?”

No response. Glassy eyes fixed on me. His young mind was overcome in the new surroundings.

There is no tremendous end to this story. The boy eventually wiped his nose and eyes and meekly stayed in his seat. I didn’t have precisely what he needed at that moment, so the best I could do was to help him feel welcome and recognize his discomfort at the newness of the situation. I don’t know whether he will come back. I hope he does. (He did return and is now well integrated into the class.)

In this moment I saw a new way of welcoming the stranger. Matthew 25:40 says, “…whatever you did for one of these least brothers of mine, you did for me” (NAB). Who is a lesser brother than a frightened child? Who needs welcoming more than a second-grader in a moment of vulnerability? Dorians offered for a fleeting second the opportunity to practice a corporal work of mercy: To welcome a stranger. Did I cause him to experience transformation with my words? Certainly not. But I tried to let him know that I and the other catechists in the room care about him and want him to be comfortable in our classroom. I found myself wanting to feel good after performing this seeming corporal work of mercy, to experience gratification and closure. I didn’t get that, but it was unfair of me to expect personal fulfillment.

Welcoming the stranger does not always result in conversion or fond memories. It is not for the benefit of the person doing the welcoming or the person doing the feeding or quenching the thirst. Rather, the corporal works of mercy are meant to provide essential food, drink, clothing, and shared humanity. Corporal works of mercy provide dignity to another. And when dignity is recognized, an overflow occurs that conforms us—that conforms me—to serve and love my neighbor without expectation of reward.

In moments like I experienced with this young boy, there is an immediate choice, and choices prudently made, said Blessed Pope John Paul II repeatedly in his teachings, are what transform ordinary people into holy saints. Did I choose rightly? There are small adjustments I could have made to help him more. Perhaps I could have asked him to help by passing out the nametags we were about to create. Or I could have said something more cheery to welcome him. What I did was instinctual. I tried to match his mood, speak at his level, and offer gentle welcome to a young boy who felt like an outsider. 

My approach may have been imperfect, but choices also mean an opportunity to learn. Next time I hear a sniffle, I won’t be terrified. I will be steadier in response, truer to welcome, and more relaxed in my approach. Experience is a fine teacher.